Well, precisely... I don't know.



I guess that I'm in a sort of rut.
It's easy for me to find excuses for not creating anything at the moment, what with all the work I have to do at the moment for my day-job.
And I'm happy to have all the excuses, because I'm still struggling with the "business" aspect of my creative activities.
Part of it is fun—getting a new look and the business cards that go with it. But as I have already "paid my dues" in another (interesting, by the way) job, I don't take too well to the "compromising" part of it.
Yet, it is sometimes tempting to "make what sells".
So, at the moment, my favourite technique, in order to resist this temptation, is not to make myself make anything unless I'm excited about it.
All the while, I'm never very far from that notebook in which I doodle ideas that need experimenting with. Probably why one of the things I've been working on is learning about handbinding techniques. Very much like crosstitching— while completely engrossing, it allows the mind to ramble on.
I also look around a lot, and keep collecting materials, as original and beautiful as possible.
I also fantasize that something I have made attracts fiery enthusiasm... In someone who is not my mother or my best friend, I mean.
I already know about drudgery, and I am no wannabe artist. I want to be, and stay, passionate about what I make.
So, even though everything seems a bit blurred right now, it feels more like a sort of holiday than an actual rut, after all. I need the time— I take it.